If only...

If only we could live in the moon,
we'd stare at the full earth -holding hands- contemplating it's bright blue ocean and the starfish surrounding it.
We'd play our chordless guitars and sing our songs in silence thinking about each other.
We'd be able to hold on to the stars and forget our fears. There would be no more crying and our tears would be replaced with countless smiles and laughter.
We'd stop wondering about fairytales 'cause we'd be living one of our own.
And if we had to come back, we'd tell them our story. If only they could believe us, they couldn't help but wonder how did we manage to get so lucky.

A little guidance please...

For some stupid reason I can't help but search for the meaning of the voices in my head telling me tu jump, to fly away, to escape. But how can I do that?...And...should I?
I wishe there was a light to guide me, a light pointing into the right direction, or at least the one I should take.
I don't really know if I should let the wind take me away without knowing my final destination or where will my destiny drag me to. All I know is that a part of me wants to stay in the place that I've been occupating for so long; and there is the pother part telling me to break free. I know my heart wants to fly away, but my mind wants to stay and try to move on. Should I listen to my mind and stick to the logical side of the situation? Or should I embrace the opportunity to spread my winds open again, to fly again and be free to feel the wind beneath my wings. Should the world see me traveling through the black night sky? Am I worthy of smiling forever?
If only I had a little guidance.
If only the one that really knows me and has seen me how I really am, the one that has seen my wings stay still for so long and has listened to my silent tears, if only the one could tell me what will it be. Will it be yes? Or will it be sorry?
Do you really know what I am and do you accept it? From the bottom of your heart?
Will you fly away with me?

From behind the cat's scratch, only the one true mystery can be.

To see the real mystery, one must live in the darkness to be free.

I can't take my mind off of you...I wish you were here...I left my heart open...But you didn't understand... 

Breathe no more

I

I've been looking in the mirror for so long
Taht I've come to believe my soul's on the other side
All the little pieces fallen, shatter
Shards of me too sharp to put back together
Too small to matter
But big enough to cut me into so many little pieces
If I try to touch her and I bleed I bleed
And I breathe, I breathe no more.

II
Take a breath and I try to draw from my spirit's well
Yet again you refuse to drink like stubborn child
Lie to me, convince me that I've been sick forever
And of this will make sense when I get better
I know the difference between myself and my reflection
I just can't help but wonder
Which of us do you love, so I bleed, I bleed
And I breathe, I breathe no
Bleed, I bleed
And I breathe, I breathe, I breathe, I breathe no more.

Decisive moment..

Countless times I've cried my heart out without a reason;
Several times I've stood alone screaming out my soul to scare the pain away.
I lay here, broken and tired of breathing the freezing air of pain surrounding me,
I need to get away and bleed,
I need my wounds to give me peace.
I'm sitting here, submerged in my cold tears, with my eyes dry from crying, shivering to death with thw weight of the pain sinking me down. And all I want to do is bleed...bleed until I stop feeling, until I breathe no more and my tears become useless because my eyes are shut and I'm not condemned to see you anymore.
I say goodbye to you and the pain I was used to for so long.

Scars

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
You're making me insane
All I can say is

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last stand

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shouldn't ever came around
Why don't you just go home?
Cause you're drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
And I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
But you didn't understand
Go fix yourself

I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel ...